Entry - April 2024

Me: Why are we afraid to express love? Because it may not be reciprocated? Because it may be ‘taken’ away? No one can ever take my feelings of love away. They are my feelings. Do they need to be shared? I guess it depends on the type of relationship. One cannot take my feelings away. They might not express them back but they are my feelings. And I choose how and when to articulate them. Love is infinite.
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Entry - April 2024

Me: I am thinking of how I prompt myself in the morning and during the day to live my own realizations. And hear my guiding tenet.
 
Universe: Didn’t you write from the point of view that you were already living them?
 
Me: Yes, but to continue to do so and evolve within those tenets I must make an ongoing and concerted effort.
 
Universe: True, it does take a conscious effort to remain in your body and heart space.
 
Me: Can we talk about conscious pull or nudge to unconscious or ego want?
 
Universe: Can you elaborate more?
 
Me: I struggle with the concept of manifesting. I want therefore I get. Yes, I know it is more than that. It seems unconscious of the heart’s desire to expand. There is a vast difference. I feel the draw to live an expanded life. To be more open to all and focus on my growth through contemplation and relationships. To increase my awareness of barriers, my voice, and an increased willingness to move through all of these and expand my ‘self’. How do I do that? What is my flexible plan?
 
Universe: That all sounds spot on. Have you made a plan yet? I feel this needs more elaboration.
 
Me: This is all I have for the moment. It all just came to me. Taking the time to reflect and articulate will be needed. There is that dedication we have spoken about before.
 
Universe: What is a step? Aside from writing this.
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Entry - April 2024

Me: With some reflection this is what came in. I feel the draw to …. as opposed to I want. Making sure it is from the heart not the head. I feel the draw to expand my life, my heart. I guess if I look to my book, it is the flow and the ebb. I sit with the expansion and curiousity. ~*~

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Entry - April 2024

Me: Hi Universe.
 
Universe: Hello, nice to feel you.
 
Me: Question. How do I put something in the past and leave it there? Or, is it staying with me because it isn’t resolved yet or I haven’t learned what I needed? If I have to release it then I need to find some kind of ritual of sorts so I can then go back to present? I spent alot of the day going over and over something. It took up way too much of my time and energy. A small box to write down and fill with notes of such things seems to help a bit. Eventually either taken out and reflected on or burnt when no longer taking up that time and space. A way to say, I hear you but you don’t need to be in my ear all day long.
 
Universe: Have you tried that?
 
Me: Yes, once.
 
Universe: How did it work?
 
Me: The paper is still in the box.
 
Universe: There you go. It didn’t need to come back out once you released it.
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Entry - April 2024

Me: Expansion, openness to receiving and surrender. How do I invite those in?
 
Universe: Hello. Great question. Do you not already practice each of those?
 
Me: Hmmm, I guess I do. I know them and what they mean it really is just how much I focus on them and apply them. What if I lived like everything worked out as it is exactly in my heart? Learn to live abundance, not chase it.
 
Universe: See, you have them. You are just reflecting on them.
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Entry - April 2024

Me: Morning universe
 
Universe: Hello. I sense you are feeling more balanced as of late.
 
Me: Astute you are. Yes, I am. Finding a way forward into the present moment and finding joy in that space.
 
Universe: Good. Humans tend to hold such unbearable restriction for themselves. They damn the flow of life, of their life and build these elaborate barriers in the name of growth and control.
 
Me: Oh yeah. Shedding seems to be a great metaphor as of late and in the spring. Hair by hair we are offered a new and lighter coat. A new outer layer to keep our energetic form. Recognizable to each other. Imagine if we didn’t have the body form? Would we all be a soup of energy? Or bubbles in the air? How would we define ourselves? Who am I?  No one’s concern but my own really. ‘How am I?’ Perhaps a better question. ‘How’ denotes how I walk in this world. I walk as softly as I can. Working on walking more softly and with gentle purpose daily. I am a kind, positive, and gracious human. Those are the ‘hows’ for me. How are you? Takes on a whole new meaning. I like being in a deep place of contemplation. I like what comes with it and from it.
 
Universe: Profound words.
 
Me: I am finding self-reflection to be so important and helps me stay in the present moment. Once I release what I was reflecting on as needed.  Let me explain. I got to the point of needing to self-reflect most likely due to something that had happened. It seemed that it would be more useful to self-reflect as a habit not just when I feel off balance. All the time not just when the need arises. The need is always there in some way, shape, or form.
 
Universe:  Aren’t all of these pages and our dialogues, self-reflections?
 
Me: True, true!  So, I guess I am getting there and walking my talk without even recognizing it.  Yet so often I am driven to it. I used to write best and only when I was in a heavy emotion. I see now that that is changing. Thank you for pointing that out.
 
Universe: Absolutely. Want to go on or come back another time?
 
Me: Let’s call it a day.
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Entry - April 2024

Me: Hi there
 
Universe: Hello, how are you today? 😊
 
Me: Haha, good one. I am well, and present and continuing to contemplate the complexities that are me.
 
Universe: Good. I hope you also take some time to just be you. All that contemplating can be hard on the mind.
 
Me: Yes, a balanced life after all.   
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Entry - April 2024

Me: Just wanted to drop this thought in there. What if we start with a wider view of the ‘big picture’ then filter our way in. Things look different when I start with a wide angle or the collective perspective.
 
Universe: Interesting. Let’s delve into that one when you get a chance.
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